I don’t know about you, but I really struggled with the spiritual basis of the Twelve Step program.
Fortunately for me, and I suspect for many of us, I was desperate.
And I was also hearing people tell my story. And for the first time, I knew I wasn’t alone.
I understand today that that experience right there IS an experience of a Power greater than myself, but I didn’t see it that way at the time.
So I want to talk about one of my blocks, just in case it could be helpful to you.
My biggest block to the spiritual basis for this program was my relationship to power. More specifically, this block was my experience with people in my life who had power over me.
Needless to say, those people did NOT use the power they had over me in loving ways.
Which meant that coming to believe that a power greater than myself could restore me to sanity was a huge leap. It was a chasm I struggled for a long time to cross.
If you’re facing this chasm, here are some suggestions for making the leap.
- Pay specific attention to people who do loving things for you.
- Write that shiz down!
- Collect all these notes in a box, or keep them all in a notebook.
Do the same thing for any kind of small blessings, and of course big miracles, that happen in your day-to-day life. Pay attention to them. Write these occurrences down. Collect them all in that same box or notebook.
Then regularly go back to that box and read them aloud.
This practice is what I call a God file. And it does wonders the for the negative subconscious messages that sabotage the spiritual work we’re trying to do in this program.
(In fact, as your coach, it’s important for me to insist on the reading aloud part, especially if you can do it with emotion – that’s what makes it so beautiful for reprogramming the subconscious!)
If you’ve ever heard of a Happiness Jar, this is a similar concept. But it’s important to call it a God File – or Higher Power File if you prefer because we’re using it to learn to trust that Power.
So, now I’d like to hear from you. What actions have you taken to help you better trust in a Higher Power? Share them in the comments below. I read every one.